Reach for the Stars!

I have had such a hectic month and I am glad to see it go! I also acquired a year to my age which to be honest was the worst birthday ever! But, moving on...

I have recently become obsessed with engagement rings! I can’t even explain what brought it on! I’m not even that eager to get married! Maybe it’s the fact that my birthday reminded me that I’m getting older or my constant feeling of broodiness or, which is my most likely conclusion, the fact that I have gone back to being the old me.

In the past 2 to 3 years I began to settle. I know it’s disgusting! I settled on which job I had, what food to eat, what clothes to wear and worst of all, what people I had around me. It wasn’t a conscious decision but I have always been told I was too something – too honest, too picky, too unrealistic, I aimed too high, I expected too much...

I’m not one to be bothered by people’s opinion of me but when everyone is saying the same thing you start to wonder if maybe you are indeed expecting too much from life and that maybe you are being unrealistic and will end up falling flat on your face. I was a ‘If it’s not exactly what I want, I don’t want anything’ kinda girl. But then I started to settle - so what if my job bored me out of my head, it paid the bills! So what if the red killer dress I saw online wasn’t in store, the blue one was cute too! So what if my friend was being moody, she's dealing with a breakup!

The problem with this acceptance of circumstances is that you stop living life and start coasting. You begin to not aim so high because ‘shit happens’ regardless and you don’t want to be disappointed. I started excepting people for who they were instead of surrounding myself with people that I could relate to. I became so understanding that I started to make excuses for peoples’ behaviour. I became so ‘nice’ even I couldn’t stand me!

And then one day a few weeks ago I had a very rude awakening. I was being taken for a d***head by someone I really cared about! My new understanding self had refused to see that the person in question was just not deserving of me in their life, not even as an acquaintance! I have this blessing and curse - I’m too loyal. I would go to the end of the earth to help someone I cared about and in the past three years people have taken huge advantage of this. On a normal day I would have just got rid of the person, friend or no friend, but my new understanding self gave in to the cries for help. Well on this given day I realized that I had turned into a person I didn’t like because, for all my new found niceness, I wasn’t happy. So I started to get rid and now I’m back to reaching for the stars and having zero tolerance for BS.

So back to the ring - I am aiming  for something that will make me seem very unrealistic due to its symbolism and its cost. I have decided that I WILL have a 1.5 carat round cut three stone diamond engagement ring with D grade colouring, VVS2 clarity and diamond encrusted platinum band preferably by Tacori. Now all I need to do is find my 6’1 and above, size foot 10, Armani suit wearing investment lawyer that will do the honours of paying for this ring! LOL!

No star is too far, make it happen!

My Star! 

"Free my dwarg" *rolls eyes*

Disclaimer

This post was not meant as an indirect to anyone and apologize in advance if it in any way offends you. This blog is all about how I feel and not documented facts so if you can't take it just press the red 'X' on the top right hand corner of your screen now. Thank you.

Has anyone else noticed that on statuses and  fields on networking profiles that require a description of yourself or a favourite quote now all say variations of "Free my dwarg"? Examples include:

* 3 my nigga

* Free ma homie

* 3 my boi

* Free Yungah Bullet

Am I the only person who feels that anyone known as 'Yungah Bullet' is best left behind bars?

I apologize in advance if Yungah Bullet is your brother but lets be real, if that name is an example of what he does while he is 'free', then by all means lock him up and throw away the damn key!

I have had people I know go to prison, some people are still serving time, but this 'free my nigga' crap is really pissing me off! How can anyone want a murderer to go free? 

There are many reasons for people to be sent to prison and to be honest I have become desensitized to many 'everyday' crimes. Things like fraud, dealing, shoplifting and driving without a licence are more or less the norm and I do feel that its a waste of paperwork, prison space and tax payers money to send such people to prison, just put them on tag or something! It won't stop them completely but it will reduce their activity. On the other hand, people that are going around killing other people's children and family members need to be locked up and left to rot!!! 

Personally I had no problem with gun crime a while ago because the victims were mostly people who had caused physical harm to their shooter or someone close to them. It was also done in fear of getting caught behind a street alley at the darkest hours of the night where anyone innocent wouldn't get hurt. These days people are shooting and stabbing in broad daylight over a stolen pencil!

A few months back a bunch of school kids chased a boy into Victoria Station in London and stabbed him to death. For those of you who don't know the station, it is a very large train station that has a lot of people, CCTV cameras and patrolling policemen there at every time of the day. I don't know what the boy did to them but he wasn't attacking them and the kids involved obviously had no fear of getting caught or of harming innocent people. I was therefore very happy when I heard they were all arrested to be charged.

So when one idiot brother/sister/friend/cousin/classmate puts "free my dwarg" as a status it infuriates me! Your 'dwarg' KILLED someone! 

(Deep breath)

I don't know what I would do if I was in a situation where someone was holding a gun to my face and I by some miracle managed to get it off them (actually I do - I would put a bullet in their knee cap so that they can't move, another in their stomach so that gastric acid can be released to burn their insides and drag them to somewhere where no one would find them so they can bleed to death! lol!) but that would be self defense!!! The kids nowadays are not defending themselves, they are being predators and when they proudly call themselves names like Yungah Bullet they need to be locked up for the safety of others!

I agree 100% with the stop-and-search policy (when the officers are not being racist that is!)! If the search means they confiscate a gun that could have sent a stray bullet towards my loved ones then search all you like!

I do pray for freedom for all the people who are wrongly imprisoned, those who were defrauding the government (they rob me of my money every month in taxes to fund wars!), the women who accidentally killed their abusive partner, the men who harmed an intruder to protect their family and the dealers who worked on a demand and supply basis only to make a buck without endangering innocent people (the way I see it a druggie comes to them - not that I think drug dealers are justified in their actions!). God forgive me if any of these are wrongly being prayed for.

But to the cold hearted murderers and rapists and paedophiles and armed robbers and child abusers and joy riders killing innocent bystanders and women/children traffickers and terrorists may you all rot in prison till you receive deliverance and repent for your ways. 

As for the fraudsters robbing hard working people of their money, I hope you realise that the victim doesn't always get the money back from the bank! I'm not sure if prison is quite the solution for your problem - as I said earlier with prison space deficiency and paperwork you are just a liability - but karma really is a bitch so good luck with her!

If you are one of those people with 'free whoever' on your profiles and statuses think twice about it. Fair enough you care about them but if the crime they committed was done against your family member would you still want them free? If not, pray for them to get deliverance and change their ways before they become free.

Not Rude, Honest...